put all things said aside, if you have hope,
use it. use that single thread of happiness you have to crawl
out of this rot. and you may find it in anything. maybe it's in
a romantic partner, family, music, passions... anything not rotten
in this fundamentally broken world.

however, if your tether to reality is getting thinner by the day,
i don't see why disappearing would be the morally incorrect answer.
many may reply with grief from loved ones, but sometimes you just have
to put yourself first. put your autonomy first. if suicide happens to
be the only possible outcome for you...
that seems okay to me.

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