have you made peace with the loneliness of knowing you don't belong in this world? do you see them concern themselves with superficial matters such as sex, money, clothes? you do. you know you will never belong with these people. you know you're awake when everyone seems to be asleep. that's the loneliest feeling of all, isn't it? you were aware of the fact that your existence was a mistake sent from above, but were you aware of how deeply it seeps into your existence in this world as a whole? when you have this feeling, you don't know how to deal with it and what to do with it. you will never know where to put your sensitivity. there seems to be no hands soft enough to hold your fragility. when you realise that, the end will come to you by itself. it's not sadistic, it's just the everlasting flow of nature; the nature of earth.

when you finally realise that this world was not crafted for you, you will come to believe in spirituality and religion to bring you a sense of belonging. i will not insult your intelligence by downplaying them, but why would 'God' mould someone as lost and worthless as you? the universe seemed to throw you in this mercilessly. when you feel yourself losing to a higher being, remind yourself of that. you are the universe slowly falling into the depths of the true nature of society and nature itself.

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